November 11th, 2008 by Ascelyn
So. Here I am.
We went to the hospital last night to see C, my sister-in-law, at their invitation. She’s healing up well, aside from some cramping. She and her husband and my other S-i-L and her boyfriend/probably soon-to-be fiance have absolutely no problem with us and don’t even seem to know what’s going on, contrary to F-i-L’s statement that everyone else feels the same way he does. But I won’t dwell on that, because I’m going to be positive.
The people in his family who I care about, including his awesome extended family downstate, aren’t angry with us at all.
I have an adorable scrunchy little bundle of a niece.
I have a job that doesn’t require much of a commute and to which I can usually wear jeans. The work, though not in my field and kind of boring at times lately, is interesting overall and will help our guys overseas. With a few generally-disliked exceptions, my coworkers rock.
I have amazingly talented, amazingly intelligent, amazingly amazing friends. I love them all to death and wouldn’t trade them for the world.
I’ve got a pretty rockin’ house, now complete with the player piano I grew up tinkering with. It dates back to the late 1800s; my grandfather bought it for $10 when he came back from WWII (thanks, Granddad!). It’s survived at least two generations of kids so far, and I hope another will soon be around to play (with) it again.
I’m going to have kids. Whether I have to grow them myself or they’re adopted, they’ll be mine, and I can’t wait.
I’ve already got kids living in Honduras and India. Jackeline, Shyni, and Efratha are going to have the chance to be whoever they want to be, not restrained by the poverty they see every day like their friends and their own parents are. I think about them just about every day, and they’ve told me with their own lips that they think about me as well. Playing a part in their lives is one of the things I’m most proud of. I dare you to ask me and find out more!
I might not be “making a difference in the world” the way I once thought I would, but to a bunch of kids in Cumberland, I’m making a world of difference. They might not be mine, but I’d give just about anything for them. They’re truly remarkable kids, and I’m very proud of them.
Saving the best for last, I have the most awesome guy in the universe as my husband. J, if you’re reading this somehow (and why didn’t you tell me that earlier?!), I love you.
Life is good.
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I wear a disguise
I’m just your average Jane
The super doesn’t stand for model
But that doesn’t mean I’m plain
If all you see is how I look
You miss the super chick within
And I christen you Titanic
Underestimate and swim
I’ve got the rifle, gonna be myself…
And I’ll be everything that I wanna be
I am confidence and in insecurity
I am a voice yet waiting to be heard
I’ll shoot the shot, bang, that you hear round the world
And I’m a one girl revolution
I’m a one girl revolution
Some people see the revolution but most only see the girl
I can lose my hard-earned freedom if my fear defines my world
I declare my independence from the critics and their stones
I can find my revolution. Â I can learn to stand alone.
                                                              (Superchic[k])